Running in Circles

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A lot has been happening around me recently and it has most likely affected my life to some extent. I had always thought that life would be so straightforward but it all seems like the older we get the more we find the need to be real and face reality, the older we get the more we tend to distance ourselves from a lot of distractions and long for the real us and in the process of being real we tend to lose a lot of people, moments and things which we thought would be forever close.

Currently I have been trying to find a balance with everything and stay consistent at it but it seems almost impossible. Trying to balance school work, learning new skills, personal work, my social life, my relationship with people, my spiritual life and family too. They all feel so hard to put together, when I try, I end up tilting my energy to one thing and the rest of the things get the least of the attention. I know it is not supposed to be so but I am trying so hard to put all things on track but they all refuse to connect.

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At this point, I am tired of everything and I think I need a break from life even if it is just for a day, I need to clear my head, unwind and restart all over again but even that is a hard decision to make right now.

It all seem like I am running in a circle and nothing is standing out, the whole confusion and uncertainty is really draining my energy, I am really suffocated. I try to stay happy and find joy in the little things I do but it still looks like I am only pretending and deceiving myself into believing everything is okay.

I know this isn’t how it’s supposed to be, I want to excel at everything, to nurture every part of my life equally, but it’s all like pieces of a puzzle that refuse to fit together and that lead me to keep querying; can life ever get perfect and balanced?
Well, maybe I just have to keep pushing even though it seems uncertain, I hope these all make perfect sense to me one day.

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