Energy never dies

My mother became a widow at 36, also my dad wasn't very old when he died..and our survival was terrible. I saw how my mother suffered and humiliated for various reasons time to time, that time everyone said it was good if the first born was a son.. (meaning me..) I'm the first born.. you know in Asian countries a son holds much importance.

We're stepping into Summer soon, but the weather is rather changeable now..like it rains in the evening and gets warmer during the day...

Usually I love winter, but last year it felt like I hate it more than anything else..I felt I aged 10 years for I felt terribly cold..in December 2025.. how was your weather then ?

I guess my biggest flaw is my passion..for which I earned a lot..lost a lot..and as you said I felt things deeply..still I do..I overthink.., revisit the memories in my brain, my childhood, my dad, replay the conversation with my mom...my childhood home

I hate my parents...hated them long time..but now I think , or try to think differently, you will never understand cuz you are a son..

My in-laws ruined my marriage, and thoroughly..I've painful past..still I'm alive. I go to work..I cook, sleep..and do all stuff everyday, I was not pampered, never as a kid..

Meri hisse ka payr kahi khogeya..

But I'm fine, I try to forget, Alhamdulliah I can sometimes...I pray to Almighty I never do the same injustice to my kid ...which was done to me.. Ameen.

My husband loves his daughter more than his life... destiny took an upper hand again.. she's the queen..of our home..the light, the soul..

You can say I live for her..

Am I getting too intense? I'm outspoken..so in the habit of over sharing, not with everyone... only when someone feels like coming back from my past life..

I never said, I believe in rebirth..cuz souls are energy... energy never dies..

Too much for today..dear readers..

I'll write again, till then peace ✌️