Eliminating a habit for betterment

Nobody is perfect in this world, and trying to achieve perfection is nothing more than an illusion. Instead of it, we try to do our best to improve ourselves and try to approach so-called perfection. As a human, I have many weaknesses that I want to overcome, and I am trying to make it possible. Maybe you are curious to know what thing as well as weakness I want to remove from my life at first.

For me, my stubbornness is my great strength, and at the same time, it's my weakness. Confused? Ok, then let me explain. I belong to that category of people who are not ready to lose in any kind of situation, and I am always ready to challenge my limits. I believe that I can do everything I want if I'm determined about it. My stubborn nature is responsible for it. Challenging my limits continuously makes me more productive, and in maximum time, I was the winner based on past record. I am making efforts to see myself in my best condition, and I work like a human robot when I try to achieve something. I don't care about anything in such a time when I receive any challenges in life. It's good for me that I am desperate if I want to achieve something, but my problem is that I don't take my health seriously, more specifically my sleep. I am fortunate enough not to have gotten seriously sick in my lifetime, and I thank my parents for giving me the best genes. Because of my stubbornness, I try to work even if my health condition does not support it. In fact, I take it as a challenge. From the term "productivity, it's a good thing, but from the term "health condition, it is not good. Each time, I am gambling with my health.

In the last 3/4 months, there were some rare days when I only slept more than 6 hours in a day. My stubbornness tries to make my time productive, and it also costs the time of my sleep. I am always running after something. Right now, I need to sleep badly, but I am still writing this post, and again tomorrow, I have some tasks for which I need to wake up early in the morning. I will get a maximum of 4 hours and 30 minutes of sleep. I don't have the habit of procrastination, but still, I feel that 24 hours in a day is not enough for me. I wish I could extend some hours in a day for me. Now, my health condition seems fit from the outside, but my body condition is not the best, and I can feel it. Instead of it, I am continuously challenging my limits, and I am getting a negative vibe for it. I think my stubbornness is making my physical condition worse. I know I can't go in that way in the long run. I think I need to set a boundary for my stubbornness and find a balance for it. The problem is my stubbornness, which needs to be considered based on my health condition. In a word, I need timely sleep, and that means I need to avoid going to sleep late, and I hope I won't be so stubborn that it can affect my sleep.

Let's talk about something that is difficult for me to eliminate. Gossiping about others is not a good habit, but I feel there is nothing wrong with hearing others gossip about others. I feel it's quite interesting, and I can gain much information from people about others. I don't say something bad about others naturally, but I can hear bad things about others, as there is no loss for me. I think I try to get some information from gossip from others, which can give me an advantage in some cases. I take part in gossip sometimes only, and it's not a major issue for me, but I think eliminating it is the most difficult for me. The reasons are quite simple. Firstly, I do it only sometimes, and I don't waste too much time, and secondly, I get a lot of information. Moreover, from gossip, I can understand the mentality of some people. I speak less, so I have little chance to lose, and the chances of gaining are huge. Even if it's not a good thing, I enjoy it, and it's the most difficult thing to eliminate for me as I am getting advantages also.