Wishes And Reflections.

So I am just sitting here and thinking about my life and how sometimes I wish I could just turn back time, you know? just go back to some certain moments and make different choices entirely. I know my emotions are all over the place today, and I have also got a lot on my mind though I know what I want, but looking at how things are playing out... I just wish I had done things differently in the past, Then maybe I wouldn't be in this mess now

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So I started powering down my account for a lot of reasons, but now I am thinking even if it all comes through, it is still not gonna be enough , Life has got me juggling a lot , just taking care of the kids, myself, and all that comes with it. It is somehow overwhelming, but I'm hoping God Will come through for me,that I am sure of

You know what really gets me is thinking about the kids, They really do not deserve to go through all this, and it is hard on me because I want to shield them from it. But I do not want them to feel the weight of it all, so I am putting in effort to make sure things just work out,I wanna be a mom they can look up to, one they will be proud of.

I know that Sometimes life just gets really rough, and one just feels like one is stuck. You see but I am trying to stay strong, for myself and also for my kids. I just know I have to just keep pushing, even when it feels like everything is just against me, So I do just hope that someday, things will surely get better, and I know we will be able to live a more calm and peaceful life, but for now some kind of persons are not worth the stress, and so one has to move on

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See I am not gonna lie, it is really hard, Some days just feels like I am just trying to survive, But I am really determined to do very better, alot more than better. For my kids, for myself, and for the people who care about me. I know I can do this, even when it feels like I can't, I know I can and I will

Life really has got a way of throwing curveballs, but I am learning to catch them, Or at least, I am trying to. You see some days are better than some others, but I am trying taking it one day at a time, so yeah… I am focusing on the present stuff, and just trying not to worry too much at all about the future.

I just wish I could go back and do some things differently, just make better choices, Asin just take different paths. But life I know it doesn't work that way, so yeah.. I'm trying to make the best of it. I am learning from my mistakes, and trying to move forward and better in my life.

It is just funny how life works you know , sometimes you think you are only doing the right thing, but it turns out you are not. And sometimes you make mistakes, but you learn from them all, That is what I am trying to do, to just learn from my mistakes, and move on , I mean really move on

Yeah.. I know that I am not alone in this, there are a lot of people that are going through rough times too, But it is hard not to feel like you are the only one, like you are the only one struggling, So I am trying to stay positive and just focus on the good things in my life right now, and hope that things will surely get better.

This is a journey, and it is not always easy. But I am greatly determined to make it work. For my kids, for myself, and for the people who care about me, I know that I can do this, and I am just gonna keep pushing forward, no matter what comes.

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