From Fear to Familiar: My Journey With Loneliness

6 days ago

Life is something that is never going to be static and way at any given point of time in our life because whatever we are at a particular time, it is never going to stay in that way for long. There are going to be a lot of factors that are going to influence the change, which is why we are going to be in a completely different environment and will have other things to deal with, and that is why we are required to adapt to a lot of situations at a very less speed and of time as well.

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They can be things that are not going to be the ones that we like, or we are very much comfortable with them being around us. Adapting is a very big necessity from our side, as well, which is my we need to be making them a part of our life regardless of whether we are making them something that is liked by us or not, and those things can escape them, making it even more difficult to deal with.

But over time even they change just well which makes it a little bit easier to be dealing with them for a limited period but there are certain things which are not once that go away easily and do stick around for a long period and in those cases it becomes even more difficult to deal with them or sometimes it becomes a habit which we start to adjust with to have them around and not let it be a burden on us or something that we still get affected by as we used to be in the earlier days.

However it is never going to be an easy process because something that we are not comfortable with gaining any kind of compatibility is going to be very much difficult and there is a reason why we are not comfortable with it and those reasons are going to be very much a big factor why this whole process is going to be a lot more difficult than it would have been which is going we have to be extremely careful as well as looking forward the things that we can do to making it a little bit effective and easier for us.

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There have been a particular thing which was a particular aspired that I never really liked within myself and I hate it is something that I have grown up to be very much accustomed to and that has been to be alone as it has been always something that I hate it right from been a child itself because it hasn't point scary to be alone in a room and later on not been able to stay without anyone around me was something that was a very much big part of my mind status well and even when I am going in different places and never really felt very good well being alone I always love to have a company around me.

That has been something that I grew up with which was a very big reason I had so many friends because I tried to get interacting with many people and that was a thing that I enjoyed as well and slowly as a grew up even more those connection started to drift away a little bit and I was not able to manually get to have people around me and also moving away from home please a very big roll in this aspect which me to be alone or at least stay away from a little bit of human connections that I could have and I was meet to be alone which was something that I hate it to the core.

Later on that sensation of being alone converted into loneliness as I had many friends who drifted away and the phone calls became text messages which were also not very frequent and this was something which reflected on almost every other aspect as well because of which I never really help people around me all the time which I used to do in the previous thing is which is also a very big reason why I started to feel lonely rather than being scared of being alone and that was something which I have to just accept at a point of time.

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Many people will enjoy the peace of being alone and me enjoy the loneliness because they will be very much enjoying the salt dude but for me it was exactly the opposite I really hate it and at time scared as well even after so many years but surely that was a habit which I develop over so many years it was not easy for me to give up so quickly and that is my it took a very long period for me to even get habituated to all of this.

There is no particular point of time which I can think of when this transformation of getting away from that fear and making it something that is a thing that I accepted to be a part of my life begin but surely it was a very gradual process and a very slow one because it surely was not something that I enjoyed to be very honest but is something that is a part of my life now for every single moment and that is something which I have made peace with.

Even now I don't really enjoy being lonely but surely I also have accepted that it is not a weakness or a flow that I have within myself as I still enjoyed the human experience that I get whenever I have an opportunity to do that that is something that I to keep myself involved in as well but now I don't feel it's scared to be alone and that has been how the change has work on me as I was forced to live in environment which is completely the thing that I hate it the most but slowly I develop my habit and do it as well and that is what adaptation is all about and that is something which we all do in some all the other way.

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