Being Useful Was My Comfort Zone—Breaking Free Was the Challenge

9 days ago

Throughout our life there are a lot of things that we come across and their are going to be many different situations that are going to keep on changing every no and then which leads us do not be able to stay consistent with what we actually decided in the previous moment as we are facing different circumstances the very next moment which makes it quite difficult to just say along with what we believe in the very previous moment which is why it is kind of a challenge to everyone.

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And among them one of the thing that definitely gets affected white a lot even though we give in a lot of effort towards making sure that it does not get affected is going to be our promises as it is one of the most important things in our life because it definitely carries a lot of value with in itself better the same time there are a few that we do not manage to ensure that this day intact.

One such promise that I feel very much ashamed of in terms of not been able to ensure which was something that I made to myself is about actually making sure that I will never be measuring my own value in terms of how much useful I am to other people and it is a particular habit that I had for a really long period of time which was something that I wanted to let go off and even made a promise to myself for that.

It was always a kind of thought which I had with in my ownself that was about being useful to other people as it was something that was a quality that people would definitely admire and being admired was something that I used to really enjoy and it did give me a bit of attention that was something that I enjoyed as well and right from a very young age that made me get involved in things that were able to actually make me useful to other people.

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Eventually that became a particular habit that I always use to make sure that it is going to be involved in every single thing that I do and even I tried to do thanks for other people even though I had many such things to do for my ownself and I choose them first to gain that amount of admiration from them and this became an very deadly habit for me as slowly I started to question myself on this particular fact only.

All of it started to actually happen when I was in a particular kind of situation when I would actually have enjoyed a company from someone else and it was a very vulnerable situation and at that point of time I realise that it is not the same in terms of what I do for other people and from that point on World it always use to strength me when I thought of doing something for someone else and later on I promised myself that I would definitely not be involved in other people's lives and trying to do things for them to make sure that it is going to be the fact that will decide my worth.

However it was something that I did not manage to keep as I still got somehow in world into doing those same things what are the people and for the same reason itself and eventually it was the thing that I was trying to run away from because it is something that I find a little bit difficult for me to run away from as it has got so much deeply integrated within my nature that I tried to actually be used for the people no matter what.

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But at the same time it is something that I am trying to let go off and obviously it has got to a much lesser degree in terms of what it used to be years ago and that is what I am quite proud of as well because I am now trying to put myself ahead of someone else and that is something which I am little bit guilty of in terms of breaking the own promise that I made but other same time progress that I made if something is a little bit making difference.

In the end it is something that is obviously a very important thing for me because there are certain things that we do out of our own habits that we had for a very long period of time but eventually we realise after a particular point that they might be something that are not quick necessary or something that are not very valuable for our ownself and we have to be letting them go even though it was something that we believed in for such a long period of time and it is also okay if we break certain promise because we are not perfect and there are certain flaws within us and owning up to them and trying to make it work is something that is going to be the best thing to be done.

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