Waking Up to the Same Day: A Life on Loop

Sometimes we reach a point in life where everything is fine but still from within I feel that I am stuck somewhere and every morning I wake up to the same work the same routine the same people and the same thoughts Neither a new accident nor a new feeling every day seems the same Some repetitive mode is going on as if there is sleep in the eyes There is no peace in the heart as if life is going on Still I am not a part of that moving life Whenever I got something money was coming and people used to say that I was settled But from within it feels that everything has stopped Work which once seemed like a passion has now become a responsibility and while working I have become a robot now As if every day I get a new command Do your work go home go to sleep.

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I often think Is this life Was this what I studied for Was this the way I had to live Earlier I had so many dreams in my heart but now all have become just thoughts It seems that I am getting away from myself Whatever I wanted I have turned far away from the path I meet friends but do not feel like talking to them Everyone is busy in their lives I want to change everything Sometimes it seems that everyone laughs but they are also tired inside Like me every face is hidden behind a fake smile The real film is not visible.

When my family members ask me if everything is fine I just say yes How to tell them I am not able to understand myself Everything seems fine but I don't feel anything It's as if everything has become empty I have everything but still nothing I think When will things change When will I just start passing my days I stopped dreaming When did I stop listening to my heart First I ignored small things and then slowly I left everything.

It has become a comfort zone from which it seems difficult to come out I think of leaving the job but I am scared If nothing happens then what will people say if I fail What will the family think This fear is only on one side On the other side a voice comes from within saying that you are not happy You are living the same life which you did not want to live even though you wanted to and this middle phase hurts the most Neither can I move forward Neither can I go back Everything has stopped and I stay awake till late at night I use the phone without any reason I think that maybe some distraction will happen I watch motivational videos but that too helps only for a short while In the morning again the same feeling but I wake up with the same routine.

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Sometimes I feel like leaving everything and going far away Forgetting everything but that is also not possible There is so much work There is so much responsibility and people's expectations It seems that I am running away from myself When I see those people doing the work of their choice I wonder whether I will also become like them or if I am one of those whose dreams remain only in the mind This thought is a little bit inside too Sometimes I feel guilty I have everything but still I am not happy People do not have even the basic things Still they are complaining But does happiness come from passion and these things Feeling full that is real right.

From the outside it seems that I am successful Everyone says I am lucky but they don't know what is going on inside I just work I have forgotten to take time for myself Every day the same thing is repeated Without any feeling I think of learning something new doing something different but the energy is not the same After every day I only feel like resting Even when the weekend comes there is tension about Monday I never get any peace and life has become a race in which I keep running Life is a race but I have forgotten the reason I am running I just have to reach the line But I don't know why Every day has become the same in which I am just living without any purpose.

I want change but I am afraid of change will I stay in this comfort zone all my life where I am just alive but not happy Perhaps it would be a small step I would have to take a little risk for myself I want to become the same person again who used to dream who used to be excited about new experiences who used to believe in himself like that It may be the right time but anything can happen Life is giving me a chance again to understand myself and live for myself.

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There comes a phase in everyone's life when everything seems to be going smoothly but the real thing is to get out of the guilt start with small things and take a new path But maybe I am ready now You get life only once to take on something new and if I spend it just going through the motions without any excitement then it is not the life I want to start living again for myself wholeheartedly and without fear.

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