Lukewarm Laodicean

So it's 1:27am as I write this...

And I thought at around 12am, I was done for the day and even signed off on @snapie But then I started....Reading :)

And God spoke to me in a way that I've never been more convicted in my life. I'm going to share with you what I just went through, and hopefully there is a blessing for anyone that reads this.

I got baptized in my church over a decade ago. Everything lined up for me, the bible was starting to make sense, the church community was great, I felt that this was the right thing to happen to my life at that moment.

I was on fire! Late night bible studies with my family, constant reading of not only scripture but church history as well. I knew this was what God wanted for my life.

And then things went south, big time. I lost everything 'material' that mattered the most to me, my home, my job, my business....But I had God. And honestly, even though it was hell going through it all, I never felt 'bad' about it, because of my new found faith.

But time went on....

And while I still spent time in Scripture and studied the bible with my family, the fire was dimming. It reminds me of Revelation chapter 3...

I've had my moments of being on fire and being 'cold' over this past decade but right now, in my life, I can admit....I'm a lukewarm Laodicean.

Which if you know bible....It's the worst 'state' of Christendom to be in.

While parading myself around and calling myself a follower of Christ, I still to this day have my feet....In the world. I thought I could handle it, I really could.

I'd tell myself things like "Oh I'll spend time on X because of news and sports scores....Amnd maybe I'll share the gospel with people I engage with there."

Yeah that didn't happen...I found myself tonight while reading, asking why do I even have an account on X? Seriously...It literally does nothing for my life. Why do I have accounts on Facebook too? Am I 'sharing the gospel' like I told myself I would...

I cannot do this anymore.

And God clearly tells us in Scripture that if we are partakers of the world, He wants nothing to do with us. We cannot serve man and God. We have to choose.

And for me, this is a VERY simple solution.

Surrender fully.

I'm going to 'cold turkey' the world. And by God's grace and Holy Spirit, this will become my new life. Death to self and glory to God.

Please remember, this is being written now at....1:38am lol So my plan might seem like a rash decision to 'cold turkey' this stuff, but I think it's been a decade in the making.

The only 'social media' I will have going forward is my YouTube bible review channel and this blockchain. Everything else, does nothing for my spiritual walk. I choose God, 10 times out of 10, so this isn't a very hard decision for me.

And like I said, it feels like He's been nudging me this way for a decade now...So here we go, total surrender. My life over the past 10 years has been an onslaught of wins and loses, ups and downs, but the one aspect of my life that has remained a constant...

The King of King and Lord of Lords.

(P.S. I pressed publish at 1:44am lol)