Some Drop Of Tears.

It’s not that I’m troublesome or like to quarrel or remember the bad things but what if it hurts? What if it’s not something I can easily forget even though I’m surely going to forgive? What if it’s something I’m new to and I keep thinking about it? It’s possible.

I wrote about my last quarrel with my man. It was crazy and I cried. I think the only fault I had was going through his phone but what if I didn’t go through it? How was I going to know if he was cheating on me or not? To the men in the house, am I wrong for checking his phone?

Well, let’s move forward to the things he said to me which I remembered. I was asking him about a girl. Or let’s think about this together. How’s a guy whom I call my man have a baby picture of another lady on his Instagram profile picture? Isn’t it weird.

Honestly, I didn’t care about what manner I asked with but I just wanted to know who she was .
“Her Instagram username is the nickname which I gave to her and she uses that same name on her other socials”.

How come he had the guts to tell me that? He didn’t actually tell me the relationship he’s having with the girl but how does he think I’m going to feel about this. Well, I know we’ve sorted the issue but isn’t this something I’m supposed to think or worry about?

Do you now know the funny thing? I still do not want him to go. I’ve not had a relationship that last for over a year in five years so this feels like a platter of gold to me.

I just sat inside my room listening to “Stay” by Rihanna and Mikky Ekko. Am I doing the right thing? Is he the right man for me? It’s confusing but he seem like a good man.
I’m just sad that I know I do not have the perfect relationship but I still don’t want him to go. I just hope I don’t cry at the end of it all.
Do you know the thing you can do for me? Just wish me well so that this relationship lasts for long.

It’s funny how I prefer the cover of this song to the actual one. Well, the song only fits in my mood and if I want to make myself happy, I’ve only got to listen to it.

Would you believe that I cried? I just remembered what happened on that day and I started to cry. Isn’t it worth crying? Has such happened to you before or maybe something worse and you both finally ended up together happily? Tell me and let me know so I’ll be sure that I’m not on my way to hell.

Maybe Adele knows that I’m actually going to need this song someday and finally, that day is here.

I’m happy now though because I’ve stopped crying. The songs have at least made me calm and happy but what’s your take on this?